mine

its been three long years. together forever is what you have promised, i believed every words. cause i love you from the start. i tried everything to make the 'us' work but at the end.. i fell to ground.. i wanted to reach you at the top but you didnt give your hand.. i wanted this so badly, it it was an obsession for me. you were like my drugs, so sweet and drove me so insane.. , i took every dose of you. it gave pleasure and the taste was so real. i need you to give more , you abused me. it was crazy. i remember every memories, de ja vuu. killing me.. you leave me.. how could you, you knew i can't live without your smile. i still hear your voice whispered through my ear, i still feel your touch in my dream. forgive me for my weakness but i dont know why without you its hard to survive, im out of breath and i also out of words, i just let you let me go.. its the best thing to do, but its a bad thing to cry for, the shed of tears doesnt worth for you.. the pain i feel was increadibly deep that i felt like drowning, its unspoken. bleeding again and again. i miss you. i knew the story, its not that i dont want you to be happy but how will you laugh when im hurting.
and now you are my beautiful nightmare..

living in a lie.

It was my smile that hides all my tears away. But when you look through my eyes then you’ll see what’s inside.